Wednesday, 13 August 2014

It doesn't matter.....

So as my last post on here was several weeks ago I thought after the last few days coming to a complete reality check for me I would write on here exactly how life is at the moment!

The last month or so things have become really really difficult in this little household! My once productive business has become a ghost town! it doesnt matter if I pay to advertise or spend hours posting on every social network possible I just dont get custom anymore and I am sure writing this will also put off customers! But sometimes I need somewhere to put how difficult things are otherwise I too will end up in place of no return with my thoughts and sadness! 2 orders in 8 weeks is not good :(

No matter how hard I try, finances or drama or something always gets in the way, and we end up worse off than ever before. And that is exhausting. It's soul-destroying. It makes me no longer see a point in anything I do. And I hate that that is how I see life right now.

I know nobody wants to read these posts and I'm going to get myself unfollowed by a whole ton of people on here and on my other pages, but that's half the effing problem. People only want to know you when you are shiny and happy and funny. When you are dark, and gloomy and filled with pain and doubt, very few people actually stick around. I get that some people are going to relish knowing that I am miserable and that things aren't going well at all in my life, so I probably shouldn't post this. But right now, I couldn't care less about them or their opinions. 


I am sorry if offends people but this is how I feel!
 

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Feelings of stress and heartbreak....

I have already let time pass and not managed to post on here as often as I hoped!

Having a 18month old and a 3 year old, home all day with me, running a home and trying to run a business has in the last few weeks become incredibly hard!
We have reached terrible twos early and I seem to have a 3 year old going on 13!!!
With the intense heat causing a lack of sleep in our household and the daily meltdowns my little business is suffering!
I am not able to focus or put in as many hours as I would like! With all the new facebook rules and regulations making our pages invisible to about 95% of our followers now I am virtually talking to myself too, this makes it incredibly hard to even want to carry on! It feels heart breaking when no one sees or is interested in your page and work!

I have in the last few days been suffering with the stress and anxiety caused by the worry of failing!

I am taking a few days out to just try and recompose myself and get back to my positive self and little life and small business!

Signing off now

R x


Sunday, 13 July 2014

Sunday family fun and a little work too....

So we went hunting for The Gruffalo (www.gruffalo.com)  at Wendover Woods this morning! My children had so much fun running around, jumping in muddy puddles, playing in the dens!
If you ever need a good few hours out or even a day out head to Wendover Woods so much fun loads to do and there is even a fab coffee shop with great food in the woods!
http://www.forestry.gov.uk/wendoverwoods




So after the amazing morning I cam home and decided to check work emails I run a small business page on facebook its https://www.facebook.com/BespokeBabyBoutique

I must admit it is becoming harder every month as facebook has started sharing less pages posts every month since September!

So if you like Handmade children's clothing and accessories please pop over!

                                        Darby Bubble Shorts


                                         The Kora Dress


                                         Rose top

                                         Bubble Dress

I make so many other designs too pop over and have a look! https://www.facebook.com/BespokeBabyBoutique

I am back on the sewing machine tonight! So will be sharing more lovelies with you all again real soon!

Leaving you with a little Sunday Thought!

Rachel x



Wednesday, 9 July 2014

New Beginings......

It has been a very long time since I wrote a blog post and anyone that used to read my blog will soon see I have actually deleted my old blog..why?

Well for many reasons time for positive changes in my life leave all the negative behind me now!

I have spent the past 6 months working hard to re brand my page as a Bespoke clothing page I have also introduced a few pieces for women and also a few Home ware pieces!

I am currently whilst continuing with #ss14 work I am beginning to piece together our #aw14/15 collection

                                         A small collection of some of my items!